GRATEFUL
Always have an attitude of gratitude -Sterling K Brown
I began my journey of gratitude. When I was at my lowest point, my life was at a crossroads. I felt lost and did not know which way to go. I was at a point where I knew my marriage was over.
I have been controlled and manipulated, verbally, and physically abused. I knew that if I did not start strengthing myself, I would be forever trapped inside a fixed mindset just going through my life, that really wasn’t a life.
I have never been a negative person to the outside world and did not want to burden anyone with my problems. I was more of a self-sabotage feeling embarrassed by what I was allowing and I hid my sadness very well. I did not believe in myself and was trapped inside my frozen mind, full of fear and doubt, but something inside of me always knew there was something more to my life and my purpose. It kept calling me back when I slipped and forted something kept on, picking me up and helping me along the way I heard whispers often in my ears from invisible sources. “Keep going, You’re almost there I believe in you, “
I took huge comfort in this and started to listen to my own heart. My voice I had been silenced for so long. Connecting with beautiful souls that I met on my healing, self-discovery journey kept me feeling alive, worthy, important, and valued.
My confidence began to grow as did my mindset slowly, but surely defrosting from the programming and pain.
I started to surround myself with so many like-minded people who all have their own stories to share. They cheer for me and encourage my continued growth, even on my darkest days, I feel them consuming my heart, touching my soul, lifting me up, and raising my vibrations each day.
I began to step out of my comfort zone feeling safe, and as if I belong, I have the vision and goals, and I am growing a beautiful love deep inside of me, for ME.
“Gratitude turns what we have into enough and more
It turns denial into acceptance,chaos in to order,confusion into clarity ,it make sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow “-Melody Beattie
I am so grateful for the lessons that keep showing up, to teach me that I can be worthy of all I want and more more.
I am grateful for those who brought chaos and despair, who doubted me, hurt me, or contributed to my loneliness, fearfulness, and trauma. I am grateful for my resilience and strength that keeps me pushing forward step by step, even when I was so afraid.
I am grateful for those who stay beside me supporting me and unconditionally loving me for who I am, and for everyone for that, I’m grateful for having all taught me the same thing.
That I am courageous enough to only ever want the very best for myself so that I can be so full of love that I can overflow gratitude and love to others.
I cannot change what happened to me, but I can be grateful for the chance to move on and start again.
Much love to you all ❤️
Mandy xx
One response to “Grateful”
Thank you so much your story hit close to home for me. I can not wait to feel no regret and being thankful for those who have hurt me. My journey only started now. Your’s is giving me alot of hope. I appreciate it so much. May you be blessed with what you need most. But you sound pleased and not in need of anything.
Kind Regards
Lorraine Olivier